Many times in the last several years, I have felt a rather strong inner conflict between how I used to view life and how it has drastically changed since I followed God’s plan for my life. Had it not been for a few key strategic inflection points, I would have been more than happy to continue down a very “normal” path in life. If I had things my way, I would have had a normal career which I would have been perfectly happy with, assuming I had gotten what I wanted. There would have been nothing unusual about my life and with the skills I had developed, I never would have questioned that there was something much bigger that I was missing. When I look around at the many others who do have a normal life, I can see why the path I was put on can be seen as very objectionable. There are many points in my story that are highly confrontational but, not because of anything I have to say. Rather, it is the story itself that confronts all that many of us have chosen to believe and accept for reasons that I will get to the root of here.

I Really Like A Normal, Convenient Life

Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat: Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.

Matthew 7:13-14 (KJV)

I’ve mentioned this before in this series how God had a “strange” way of slamming doors on me that served to push me on the path He intended. Those shut doors were not at all to my liking. Truth be told, there were a few times when I fought God directly (and very stubbornly) over the way He caused certain factors in my life to prevent me from doing what I really wanted. During those times, I looked around at all the others who had no problems pursuing exactly what I wanted and felt that there was something wrong with me because of the way things went. That feeling caused me to become very angry at God, mostly because I lacked the understanding of why He did what He did with me and that His plan was infinitely bigger than anything I could have imagined.

But, I’m not here to talk about that huge plan here as I have many times in the past. Instead, I want to focus on the very practical side of me that even now, still occasionally causes a fair degree of internal conflict. I’m very practical at the core of my being. I like to do jobs that fit my interests, make money, pay bills and live like anyone else out there does. I like to have things in common with people and get along in all the very normal ways that others do.

On the flip side, I also like to have things my way. I like to make logical, rational plans for life and follow through on them. I like to accomplish what I set out to and continue to make visible progress in all those personal pursuits. I like to look “normal” in the sight of others and do all the same things they do. Really, I just like it when everything is pleasant and convenient for me. Now that I’ve said that, I wonder if you are starting to see the signs of a root issue here. The root issue that leads many others to not go down the path God put me on during the last 10 – 15 years.

The Root Of Our Plans

And he that taketh not his cross, and followeth after me, is not worthy of me. He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it.

Matthew 10:38-39 (KJV)

Since 2015, I began learning things that no church ever taught me in 40+ years. There are all those inconvenient verses where Jesus Himself told us straightforwardly what we must do if we really want to receive eternal salvation. Most of those passages are extremely inconvenient and unpleasant, which is why most American churches refuse to teach them. In my country, we have had it too good for too long (although that is increasingly no longer the case now). We have made an idol out of our own comfort and our own agendas and we have changed the Bible to make it pleasing to those personal agendas. In short, we have twisted the Bible so that we omit anything that is too inconvenient and confronts our new made up counterfeit “Christian religion” (aka, the path of least resistance).

Alright, so I’m really not here to get on that today but I am trying to get to the root of why many people just breeze through life without really wanting to know if anything they are doing is actually right. See, from experience, I can tell you that when you reject the supernatural and the truth that God speaks in dreams, you give yourself the false notion that you can keep God at a “safe” distance so He is never allowed to get in your business and tell you what’s real. By rejecting all that I have learned in the last 10 years, you effectively make God into whatever feels good to you.

I can prove this is true because when I have tried to talk to people who have made up their own counterfeit “Christianity”, they very quickly show a very nasty and ugly side like a hissing snake with fangs ready to strike. They start throwing baby bottle Bible verses (that they don’t even know the meaning of) and try to make it look like what I say is wrong. They make up all sorts of ridiculous excuses, especially in saying that those inconvenient Bible passages don’t mean that literally and that I’m some sort of extremist. What I observed is that in reality, they pick and choose what they want to believe and fight you to the death to reject anything that does not suit their made up beliefs.

Well… as I say, I’m not here for that today. I’m really trying to only focus on why I would have been happy to live a perfectly rational life for these last 10-15 years. If I had, I would have done more or less what the others (above) do and joined the ranks of those who believe whatever they want to (ie: the wide road that leads to destruction).

Had God not closed doors in my life that prevented me from doing what I really wanted, I would have been happy to have a very normal and convenient life. I really like normal, practical, logical, rational and all that. I like to go where I want, whenever I want and not have constant restrictions to everything I do (for 10 years now). I like being the “boss” of my own life and not having God there telling me what to do and how much is wrong with me. Seriously, the idea that God is very real and He absolutely has things to tell us is totally at odds with the human nature.

We don’t want to believe that we are wrong about anything and that it is up to us to decide what is right and wrong. We like the idea that God is a man made “Santa” who only exists to give us what we want and the “God is love” thing means He never actually judges us but instead lets us do whatever we give ourselves a convenient excuse to do. We don’t want anything to do with the idea that most of our ways are totally wrong and we are in fact on the wide road that leads to hell. We want to think that “if there really is a rapture” (there is) then the fact we think we are a “Christian” makes us automatically qualified (despite the fact that the Bible does not agree with that lax criteria).

Well, it seems we are already getting off the track of why I am a very down to earth normal and practical person at heart who would have been happy to live a very normal life. Yeppp. Way off track. I guess the point here is that no matter how I try to look at a different way of life other than the one God led me into, I keep coming right back to the same conclusion… if I had gotten what I wanted, I would have ended up in a very bad situation in more ways than I can ever describe here.

What’s the point then? There are so many times I’d have loved to “go back to Egypt” and have a nice, normal life but every time I stop and think through where all that goes, I end up right back where I am today – very thankful that God never let me do what I wanted to. And, that He had a plan which He strongly helped me to discover and to stay on the right track, despite how many times I really did not like the path He chose for me. Whew…

God’s plan for my life has always been infinitely better than mine, even though so far, it has not been fun at all. “Take up your cross and follow Me”, as Jesus said. That is the ONLY way to eternal salvation and many amazing things now in these end times. Never take the wide, easy road that leads to hell. It’s nice and convenient now but you’ll pay for it forever. Give up your plans for your life and find out what God made you for. No other choice will be worth it.

To be continued…

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